Grrr!!!!

As previously posted I had another seizure last Wednesday.   I think I missed a dosage of my pills but still, something isn’t right.  I miss one dosage and only 3 hours later I have a seizure?  They said that stress may had an effect on it too.  I asked my parents and they said duh, you are totally overstressed and the at work they forced me to take time off for the exact same reason.  But they don’t get it.  They send me home and all it does is make it harder for me when I come back because no one can do what I do there, GRRR!!!  Even when I was forced ‘off’ they would call me at home or email me to handle things.  Its like, this would be way easier if you just let me come to work instead of guessing or trying to direct you through my office!!  So I go back work tomorrow with no doctor’s note or anything and dependent on mommy or daddy to drive to and from work again.  It will be interestin if they me in or not.  They seemed pretty adament about me not coming back without a note but with their depedency on me now, and deadlines approaching I am willing to bet they will ‘forget’ to ask me for the note.

Here we go again

Just when I thought I had this stupid cancer thing beat … I had another seizure last Wednesday.  Now I am too scared to drive or anything for that matter.  I got sent home from work two days in a row because they don’t want me there until my doctor gives the okay.  I try to get a hold of the guy and he won’t return my calls or emails.  I don’t know why I am writing this, I guess I just want to write it down and get it off my chest.

Oh wells, I’ll get through this just like every other thing in my life.

Congratulations Mr. Raed Jarrar

NEW YORK (AFP) – An airline passenger forced to cover his T-shirt because it displayed Arabic script has been awarded 240,000 dollars in compensation, campaigners said Monday.

Raed Jarrar received the pay out on Friday from two US Transportation Security Authority officials and from JetBlue Airways following the August 2006 incident at New York’s JFK Airport, the American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU) announced.

“The outcome of this case is a victory for free speech and a blow to the discriminatory practice of racial profiling,” said Aden Fine, a lawyer with ACLU.

Jarrar, a US resident, was apprehended as he waited to board a JetBlue flight from New York to Oakland, California, and told to remove his shirt, which had written on it in Arabic: “We will not be silent.”

He was told other passengers felt uncomfortable because an Arabic-inscribed T-shirt in an airport was like “wearing a T-shirt at a bank stating, I am a robber,’” the ACLU said.

Jarrar eventually agreed to cover his shirt with another provided by JetBlue. He was allowed aboard but his seat was changed from the front to the back of the aircraft.

Alhamdulillah!! Finally.  It’s amazing how afraid people are of us and how much they hate us.  The above incident is ridiculous.  I am so happy that he got something for what he went through.  Although you can never put a dollar amount on publically humiliating someone like that, at least the company got punished in the only manner that they understand, in the cheque book.  You know it’s a good thing he didn’t have a rock in his hand otherwise they would have bombed the shit out of him like are doing to us in Palestine.  Israeli’s are claiming that we are the agressors and that we are the ones that are the terrorists.  Our main defensive weapon is the good ol’ rock.  They have all kinds military machinery and equipment and are able to drop one ton bombs on peoples homes and we have rocks.  Yet somehow we are the agressors in the area.  Figure that one out.  I do feel this time however that the world will wake up and see this conflict for what it really is.  Genocide.  This small victory over here by Mr. Jarrar is a step in the right direction.

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yup

I am soooooo bored.  So I thought I would come on here and just start typing to see what would happen.  I don’t really have much to say, but I am here and the work New Year is starting just like the old one ended.  Which means I am busy beyond belief.  But that is a good thing, especially these days.  I am very thankful for the job I have and the fact that we are busy.  While others are feeling the crunch of the economy thankfully we haven’t felt it yet and maybe we will get lucky and not be effected by it.

Hmmm.  Let’s see what else can I ramble on about.  I saw Valkyrie two weeks ago.  It was okay.  Not great but not bad either.  Oh, and Tom Cruise didn’t even ruin it!  If you have no other choice, go see it.  It is definitely a DVD rental though.

Hmmm, let’s see what else is there.  Oh ya, some really terrible news.  My aunt and uncle came over on Christmas and I thought, hmmm, she looks a bit bigger than she used to.  Obviously I didn’t say anything, I mean I don’t much about women but I know enough to know not to say hey, you gain some weight there fatty!!  But after they went home I asked my moms and she said no that’s 3aib (rude) don’t you dare ask.  Well Friday comes along and bingo-bango, Moo was right!!  But unfortunately we got terrible news today, there may be complications with the child.  I don’t even know what to say to her.  We are pretty close my auntie and I, she is not that much older than me and for the first  I really don’t know what to say.  What do say really.  There is a really good she could have a miscarriage.  I mean we were picking names over the weekend.  And since I called the pregnancy before anyone else, I got to name the child if it was a boy.  Please pray for her and her child.

In rereading this post that last paragraph doesn’t really seem to fit in but it came out I don’t know.  Please pray for them.  Thanks.

Israel’s Genocide Has To Stop

As I write this my Palestinian brothers and sisters are being murdered en mass and the fact that no one has decided to step in is baffling on a level that I cannot comprehend.  Everyone in the world is literally just watching.  It is on every news channel, in every language and no one has done a thing.  All they do is talk, I condemn this and I condemn that, but no sanctions are ever put in place and no other actions either.  You know when Saddam did his thing (no need to rehash that), he was punished, as were the people of his country.  There were all kinds of sanctions placed on Iraq.  What Israel is doing now is the EXACT same thing that Saddam did and no one is doing anything.

This behaviour has been going on for over 60 years now and I don’t know why the world hates Palestine so much.  What did we do to deserve this kind of treatment?  Even if we did something wrong, like really, really messed up, I think we have paid our dues.  I mean the Americans get away with murder (literally) daily and besides the Middle East and the French, no one says anything.  Even the Germans have been forgiven for the disgusting things they did in World War II.

The thing I love the most, is all the neighbouring Arab countries that are just watching like everyone else.  Arabs are the worst kind of people.  Instead of helping each other out, we always put each other down and do whatever we can to hurt each other.  Arabs are one of the wealthiest races on the planet and if we would just stick together and help each other out we probably wouldn’t be in this situation in the first place but hey, we do build really tall buildings!

The only thing that we have hope for is the beleif that one day we will all stand before Allah on Judgement Day and we will be asked what we did and what we didn’t do in our lifetime and He will be fair and just and reward and punish as necessary.

To all that read this post, please act, talk to your local MPs and let them know that this cannot continue.

Happy Holidays My A$$!!

Me sooooo tired.

Our office was shut down from noon December 24, 2008 to 8:00 am January 5, 2009.  I was looking forward to this break since like October.  I have needed a break but I have been so busy that I couldn’t take any vacation time.  The only time I had away from the office was for a week long seminar and when I got back from the seminar all my projects had gone to hell.  No one did anything right.  I had my Blackberry during the seminar, on silent of course and during the breaks I would check my emails and messages.  I would have like 10 messages everytime.  On a 5 minute break, away from the office, you can only put out so many fires.  That week long seminar set me back two weeks.  One week for being ‘absent’ and one week fixing everyone else’s mistakes.  Hence, working through the ‘Holidays’.

Moreover, the catalytic convereter on my car got a hole in it, $1,400.  God owning a car is both a blessing a curse.

The other thing with the Holidays is that it really sticks it to you if you’re still single like I am.  I mean I don’t celebrate Christmas and I don’t go out and party for New Year’s, but as another year ends and new one begins its like here we go again, same shit, different year.  I don’t get it either.  I mean, I just don’t understand why I have such a hard time finding someone.  My friends have told me that I am far too picky.  But why shouldn’t I be.  I am a great guy and I plan on only doing this one time and  being with the one I truly love and the one that loves me in return, not needs me, but actually wants to be with me.  I am not about to settle for some broad just to be with someone, it wouldn’t be fair to her or to me for that matter.  I mean I am not depressed, but I know I could be happier, you know.  I don’t know maybe I am just a little a more agitated than normal because I didn’t get to have a vacation after all and because of the stupid car.

Do Dreams Mean Anything?

I had some weird dreams last night.

One of them was a recurring nightmare that I have had since I graduated from university.  I have it at least twice a month.  I dream that it is a month before final exams and I completely forgot about a calculus class that I was enrolled in but never attended, like ever.  Never handed one assignment, never wrote any mid-terms, nothing.  Naturally, I panic and then I wake up in a sweat.  It is then that I realize that I have graduated from school already.  This dream scares me the most because my family was very dependent on me graduating and getting a good job to help out.  So not graduating would have been an absolute disaster.  Thankfully I did graduate and have a job that I absolutely love.

The next dream I had dealt with my future.  I dreamed that I finally achieved my goal of being able to send my parents into retirement while at the same time buying a home for myself and my wife, who I never see in the dream, but others refer to her in the dream.  So at least I’m not pathetic in my dreams too!  My siblings still looked the same and were still living with my parents, who also looked as they do now.  Waking up from that dream and realizing that I was still single and lived with my parents kinda sucked.  Those dreams I classify as being really mean dreams and can be just as bad as nightmares.  It’s like a picture of someone life that is better than yours, enjoy it, enjoy it and then byebye!

The next dream I had, ya I didn’t sleep many hours in a row last night, dealt with me witnessing a crime by the mob and then having them chase me.  Only, I could only run in slow motion.  No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t move any faster.  And although they shot like a thousand bullets in my direction, I never got hit.  So I just kept running and running and running trying to go faster and faster and faster but still couldn’t, only slo-mo.  The dream ended when I got winded and I turned around to see these guys, but they weren’t there anymore and the dream completely changed into something else.  A girl I knew was drowning in a lake.  And in my dream she could swim, I don’t know if she can or not in real life, but in the dream she could, but she was perfectly content on drowning herself.  So I jumped in the lake to save her from herself.  After I pull her out, I was like WTF!! but before she could respond I ended up waking up again.

I don’t believe in interpreting dreams to actually mean anything, but I’m always interested in people’s interpretations.  Just for the record, I did contact the girl to see if she was OK, just to be sure she wasn’t going through some stuff and she seemed to be alright.  If you have any suggestions to any of the above lemme know.

The Internet

I don’t know how people sleep at night.  I am referring to that asshole that ran that beijingticketing.com website that scammed all those people out of probably millions of dollars.  And he didn’t just scam regular people like you and I, he scammed the families of the athletes too.  Imagine being a parent of an amateur athlete and having him reach that Olympic level and then not be able to see him/her perform.  To not be able to see him/her enter the stadium during the opening ceremonies.  What a fucking asshole.  I hope they catch this guy, and I’m pretty sure it will end up being a guy.  When they catch him, they shouldn’t treat it as fraud either.  It should be treated as murder as he killed the dreams of many people and worst of all the parents of those athletes and even the athletes themselves who after they perform will not be able to look up into the stands and see their loved ones.

The internet has brought about some really awesome stuff, but unfortunately it also brought about some new kind of fuck-up like the one mentioned above and all those porn loving perves and worse, child porn loving perves that are able to get away with it much more easily now then in the past.

I mean the internet has even eliminated our ability to communicate with each other.  I am a shy guy to begin with, but now, talking to a ‘real’ girl is even harder.  I am not even talking about trying to hook-up or meet a  girl I mean even when we hire a new secretary, it takes me a few days just to approach her, and thats if she’s normal looking.  If she’s pretty, forget about it.  I read an article a few months ago where they surveyed and conducted an experiment (and don’t ask me how) where they had a bunch of college males in US and tested how … ummm … they were able to perform, sexually.  I think the rate was like only 50% could get it up with a ‘real’ girl in the room and those that could, couldn’t perform for very long.  Good ol’ internet porn!!  The reasoning was, well the girls in porn are prettier and you have a wider selection.

As I understand it the internet was first created as a military tool for the US Army and although I spend way too much time on it, I sometimes wonder if the world would have better off if it was left that way.

$20M to stay home?, HELLS YEAH!!

Brett, oh Brett. Do the right thing.

First you retire so you can spend time at home with your wife and kids. You are still relatively young and have plenty of dough to retire on. Then for some unknown reason you decide that you want to come back. Well people say it’s unknown, but I know the truth: God, my kids are annoying!!

So what do you do, you go back to where you were an absolute hero to try and get your swagger back instead of playing piggy back. They worshiped the ground you walked on in Green Bay. You figured you could go back there and everything would be perfect again. WRONG!!! After years and years of your blood, sweat and tears and never ever missing a day at work they forget about you in a matter of weeks and hire some guy with no experience to do your job. To make things even better, they vilify you in the media because you want to come back and work. After your ex-employer misjudges the public reaction and your true intentions of really just wanting to work again, they have the audacity to offer you $20M to stay away.

Dude, I know, it’s not all about the money and kids can be annoying, but you retired a living legend in good health and have already retired and they are giving you a $20M bonus on top of that.

Don’t be another dumb jock, FUCK THEM and take the sweet, sweet $$$$.

Batman: The Dark Knight

I finally went and saw Batman last night. When a movie is a huge blockbuster like this one, I usually wait until all of hype has died down and usually I come out of the movie a little disappointed. So not the case here! The only thing that disappointed me was remembering that Heath Ledger died and he was not going to be Joker in a sequel. I’ll be honest and say that I was not a fan of him being Joker in the first place. I thought Jack Nicholson was perfect and they should have left it at that and if they weren’t, then I thought Joaquin Phoenix should have been cast in the role. I am glad to say I was wrong.

I am also glad for his sake that got to play this role before he died and he will be remembered as Joker and NOT the gay cowboy!

Aside from him though, I thought the movie was good, I thought Harvey/Two-Face was good too. It sucked that the Dawson Creek’s chick did not come back for her role (Stupid Tom Cruise) but her replacement did an good job but they tried to make her sexy, especially when she was interrogating Joker, but she couldn’t quite pull it off.

As for the movie as a whole, it was totally awesome, good balance of plot, action and romance.  If you get the chance to go see it, definitely go.